Life

As I have turned 18, a sense of responsiblity has dawned on me. I am constantly feeling guilty for the things that have happened in my life. I have finally realized that only the freedom of Jesus Christ can free me from this guilt. I am joyously thankful for those who want to be in my life. I write this merely as a reminder that God is in control. God makes us what we are. Without him we are lost and incomplete. As a child, my father was an abusive alcoholic. I can still remember when I was 2 hearing him yell at my mom, for something stupid. I put the sting of my biological father on God. I had really low self-confidence. With God really in my life, I feel really confident that God will provide safety for me and that I can rely on him. I can't fathom what my life would have been like if God wasn't in it or my mother taking me out of public school. I believe wholeheartedly that I would have committed suicide due to the stress that I felt during that time. I am hoping to be able to fully grasp the power of God without my Asperger mindset kicking in. I believe I can do it. May these words be words of encouragement to all.